Friday, June 09, 2006


Okay, I'm awful at posting new things - but honestly, I don't know if anyone is really interested in reading what I would write or think about. It's good practice though, I guess, for the book I'll eventually write. :) It's inevitable, being that I work in the book industry and love to write and read.

What have I been thinking about lately? A lot, but a few of the things:

1. Beauty. What makes us beautiful? How do we determine who / what is beautiful? My friend Tracey invited me to share at her women's retreat on Vancouver Island, and the topic was 'Becoming a Woman of Beauty'. Most scary moment? Sharing one of my awkward / ugly decade photos. Took courage - or extreme humility. Most suprising moment? Apparently every woman in the room also felt that they had an 'ugly stage' of shame. My thoughts? What happens if God's daughters never recover from feeling less than, ugly and ashamed of how they are created? Big questions... looking for answers from our Father.

2. Life. God whispered, in the quiet still moment that was one Saturday afternoon a few weeks ago. He said to my heart "life". Sounds weird and mystical, but I do think it was a calling to me to be a person who brings life, speaks life, and is living fully alive. Most sad moment? At the youth conference I was at, I asked the kids (and their youth leaders) in my seminar who felt that they were truly, fully alive to raise their hands - and no one, not one, raised their hands. I could have wept. Are God's people, who have been raised from death to life and given the same mighty power that raised Christ from the dead, walking around as dead people? May I live truly alive.

Okay, that's enough for now.

Phew. Time for a nap - or time to watch more 'What Not To Wear'. :)


Just said...

Dearest Ellen - I just wanted you to know someone read this!
You speak alot of sense my friend :)
May God save us from self-pity and give us the freedom to live fully alive. This, I strive for.
Love ya! J.

SRMcEvoy said...

I also Read this Ellen. I look forward to what your reading, your musings , jokes ... please keep posting.